My 1st and the only 1...

This is dedicated to my lovely hamster "BU BU"

I want to say that..

I'm sorry for letting you lonely by not finding a husband for you...

I'm sorry for letting you dehydrated in certain time, because i have no budget to buy u a new cage to put the water bottle...

I'm sorry for letting you starving, when I forget to feed you, and I knew that you like to eat..

I'm sorry for letting you sleep in the turtle cage which doesn't suitable for a hamster like you...

I'm sorry for letting you sleep in dirts and smelly place, when I was busy with my study..

I'm sorry that i din't buy enough toy for you to play, and I knew that you need lots of exercise...

I'm sorry that some times scared you up while you sleeping, and make fun of you while you're in anxious...

I'm sorry some time like to play with you, but over play....

I'm sorry that let you being here alone while I'm going back hometown...

I'm sorry that I was not being alert when you can even running out of the cage and fall down from the stairs...

I'm sorry that, I was fed up with you when you once again run out from the cage, and not decide to find you...

I'm sorry that even when you die, also in suffering...

I'm sorry that scolded you so many times, but you still giving me you cute little chubby face..

BUBU~~~

I have thousand thousand of sorry to say...
I have thousand thousand of thanks to say....

Thanks for accompany me while I'm boring, so do lonely...

Thanks for bringing happy to my life...

Thanks for bring me life...

Thanks for being my first pet..

Thanks for being patient with me...

I was regret that din't insist to go and search for you, instead of cranky towards you...

I miss you~~

Calling you name in the morning and when i back home is like a habits for me...

Playing with you is like a thing that will never forget...

Now, without you, somehow feel lonely...

Every morning, din't see your sleeping body, feel sad...

Every day when back room, saw the empty cage that you used to stay, feel hurt...

Every time think of you.. feel like crying....

But..

I know that you will live in peace in the heaven...

I will continue my life without you, and will stay happy...

So do you...

Just want you to remember, you will the the FIRST BuBu, and the only BuBu in my heart...

Will miss you to the rest of my life, you will never been forget....

Love you in the deepest of my heart...

I Miss you BuBu, I Love you BuBu.. from your dearest mommy~~<3

What If? What Will?

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say goodbye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?

What would you do if your close people died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

What would you do if love someone more than anything else and you could never have them?



Some people live and some people die..
But...
I want to tell you I love you..
That I will always be here for you where and if you need me...
If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever...
You will became one of the scar in my heart which will never be rub of...
Which I will pray for you every single day, pray that you will happy forever..

Love you by the deepest of my heart...<3

The Memory

That place, used to be the most favorite beach that I have been,
Used to be the place that I blank out my mind, where my mind can totally rest.
Used to be the place that I express my anger, stress and sad so do happy.
Used to be the most relax place.
But now, it became the place that will make me think of you,
The place where all of the memory with you will became visible in my mind.
Place where my mind will go towards your direction, your face will appear,
My eye will see you even there is just the sand and the sea.
Place where my heart found the excuse to dig the miss towards you.
Think of you, my heart is peace, but is wrong.
Know it was wrong, so won’t do anything towards it.
Will not erase the memory between it, unless when times goes by, I forget about it.
Because it was another sweet and beautiful memory…
One of the memory puzzles in my life.
~~End~~

Happy Always~~^^

Trying Hard ^^

If you know is impossible then don't start it...

Once you start it, people might misunderstand..

If been awhile, only you finally realize is wrong...

But when you pull out, the another person already go into it...

when another person notice you are pulling out, and that person know that is wrong,

but is too late..

the feeling already there...

so the another person was trying hard to cut off the feeling...

and now is getting shallow...

this is a very good sign wor...^^

feeling will come when you dint notice it...

once u have that felling, is depends is right time or wrong..

if is right, good lo...XD

if is wrong, yes, is hard to cut off..

but, you can cut off...^^

all is up to you...

for me, happy is everything..

if i like someone, i will up to him, he happy is the most important thing...^^

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....happy always lo~~^^

A beautiful DREAM~~ ^^

When i'm alone, eat, sleep, think alone~~

When my thought is peace,

In a very peaceful and happy mood,

i close my eye, when i wanted to sleep,

i will wish that you will be the one who wake me up,

your face will appear in front of me once i open my eye..

you will ask me to wake up.. because times up..

but all this is just like a dream, a very beautiful dream...

that will never happen again, no matter how hard i pray or wish.

because is just a dream, same dream wont happen again...

although it will not happen anymore, but this wish make me feel happy,

somehow make me still feel that u still right there, although is far but you are still there...

deep down in my heart, although is just a very small part, but u are still inside.

i can say that, i wish that i never dream about this dream.

because it make me feel like wanted to sleep forever and be inside the dream...

but i know that i have to wake up and face the reality, know that i have to wake up no matter how beautiful it is..

why is you the one who appear in this dream, if u never appear everything will seem to be very easy,

i wont have any changes, until u came, and i started to realize...

sometimes i wish that im stupid enough to dont know and dont understand..

but is just cant help it...haiz.... wa eee....

When wrong people meet with wrong people in the wrong time...

everything seems to be wrong~~~

but anyways, who cares~~~~~XD

the most important is~~~

i happy dy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

and wish u happy too~~~~~

the most important thing in my life is....

HAPPY ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3>

Continue back

i believe i change back to the normal me...

the crazy the happy cy... ^^

but something have change...when something was settle...

we getting further...

something happen?? can i know why??

misunderstand take place...

jealousy taken place....

like also played a part...

assume coming out...

is all this cause the barrier???

there is smthing that i not suppose to do or feel....

but i did it and had it...

and i have to stop all this...

because...i can't~~

because.... adalah~~~~~

thats all...

~End~

dunt know when will post again...ahahh..fail..=.=

The 10 Reasons

This is the ten reasons why i don't like and don't want to blog....

1. Blogging is like digging the past and write it down...

2. Like exposing myself..>.<

3. Don't know what to write..

4. Noting special to write...

5. Noting special wanted to share....

6. If really got thing also cannot write...

7. Waste time for wait the picture to be upload...

8. Personal thing don't used to write it down or expose to other...

9. Ada lah~~

Last lAst laSt lasT.....

10. Lazy lah!!!!

~the end~^^